Sad day..

are my entries more sad than anythin? haha. ha ha. haven gotten my assessment form but shld b fail. at least got verbal confirmation fr my assessor tt i need to do 2 more consolidation slots b4 my cat check. : ( i'm lousy. there's sth seriously wrong w my memory. i can't seem to retain information. i lose them so quickly.. can b spouting them so fluently 1 wk den get all of them wrong e next. somebody suggest a gd neuro-practitioner pls. i'm gettin frustrated. irritated. deflated. y can every other person remem their facts but not me? i hate it when ppl say i'm fr a gd sch i get gd grades i'm smart. RUBBISH. PURE RUBBISH. everythin happening to me says so much. pretty low on morale. need to work harder. need to pick myself up. need to do sports to relieve myself. wanted to go shoot hoops in e evenin was hoping so much tt no1 will use e bball court downstairs. it was so crowded. tok abt luck. another down-on-luck period. aniwae other than goin thru e theory i've so forgotten, now got MORE NEW stuff to remem. YAY. i'm SO goin to remem everything..

I so want to sleep. i'm so tired. inherited my mum's genes of having distinct n big eye bags, but e inheritance din incl colour, noticeably black. mum was commenting tt i haven been sleepin early n my eye rings r beginnin to show up (say hi.. "Hi"). I used to k.o. at 10pm, now more known as 2200h. however, e obsession w posting an entry n wat-haf-u has postponed tis timing now to 2300h +++ (GST, svc charge n 1 other which i forgot e name). waking up ever more tired per day hasn't helped work perfomance (which was nv anywhere near acceptable in e 1st place). i'm so goin to b charged 1 fine day by my Dyco for poor professionalism. i so need to go for studies.. but can somebody ASSURE me tt i can lights-off at 10pm when schooling? i've heard so much abt ppl stayin till wee hrs to study or waking up in e wee hrs to study. not my kinda ideal u noe. *sigh*

i want to play soccer. i want to play basketball.

i want to sleep but when i lie on e bed, i can't fall asleep within 10mins. Studies say tt if u fall asleep within 10mins, u r too tired for ur own gd. normal is 10-15mins. i'm tired. i feel tired. but i still dun fall asleep within 10mins. does tt mean i'm tired for my no good? i'm blabberin nonsense.

i'm not processin my tots. i'll post e lyrics. stop me fr saying more..

最想还游的世界 - 梁静茹
聊天是甜蜜的习惯 把心情都交换 一天才算完
简单是我要的浪漫 你语气有心疼 我就更勇敢

我今天 我明天 最想还游的世界 就是你 最内心 的世界
我后天 大后天 也不疲倦的想念 会是你 看着我 笑的眼

真爱 像一座秘密花园 随时有新的发现 得到新的体验
两个人彼此挖掘 再一起比对和回味
然后了解越深 相爱越深 转眼就永远

你的背弯像片沙滩 既厚实又柔软 能给我心安
阳光在你心里灿烂 从指间传递着 总让我温暖

远方像蜿蜒的海洋 从晨光到向晚 景气会变换
我们走过万水千山 辛酸会变答案 爱是归属感

我今天 我明天 最想环游的世界 就是你 最内心 的世界
管阴天 管雨天 我的心还是晴天 照亮你 多云的 那一面