Lost in Las Vegas. YAH RITE. Plain lost.

It almost feels like a decade has past.. yeah check out e time. i'm still freaking awake supposed to search for articles for discussion tmw.. tis time round is econs proj. things juz come one aft another... bre..a..t..h.. *gasp*...e...

yah sure.. i actually made time n went for ktv on Sat nite with Kyojin ppl. Dinner at Lai Lai Red-hot beef noodle house, followed by ktv at Cine. yeah. damn ex can. stayed til 3am some more. we were a bunch of sleepy crows. yeah sure, it was fun. totally. but somehow, reality sets in again n it hurts. it din used to b lidat.

-Kyojin dinner-

-e KTV ppl.. lousy placement of cam results in seng-egt pic-

i'm lacking motivation. i duno y. last time, play used to motivate me. wad does tis mean? let's say i haf deadlines aft deadline to meet.. so i go play 1 x soccer n den i'll feel refreshed n ready for e next challenge. but now, things dun seem to b e same anymore. jie is right i guess.. i've kinda lost myself. kt used to say tt uni made her see things she din in jc... n seeing tt so many ppl were so successful at such a young age inspired her to do better n work harder. somehow, things ain't goin tt way for me. mabe tt's y we aren't all tt compatible aft all. rite now, i feel like a walking dead. i haf no sense of direction; i dun enjoy wad i do; i duno wad i'm doin in e first place.

somebody tell me y can? can? i dun wan to continue lidat. i feel irritated with myself. i feel myself in pain.

uni life has become one where i meet deadlines.

wad kinda uni life is tis? wth.

it's Feb 14. Vday. who cares abt vday?! there r deadlines to meet.. there is proj to do. on another note, i still wish all couples a happy vday. i often wonder e over-emphasis of single-day occasions.. i guess i'm not a proponent of it. no, not tt i'm v romantic everyday or wadeva. i do small things. i like to do small things on a daily basis. mabe tt's wad makes me totally un-special, since i'm like tis everyday. boredom eh? yeah. i always say i'm a boring person.

meanwhile, love life remains a blank word document. No, it's not totally blank. Cos i haf frens who colour e document so much, i suspect it's become an expensive pce of abstract artwork.

mabe i realli do wan some love. but until i can sort myself out, until i find myself a direction n some stability in my fluctuating emotions, dare is e word tt'll keep me from opening my heart. bcoz if i can't take care of myself, y would i DARE to share e responsibility of another?

Happy Vday ppl. and my econs is so dead. still got econs tut haven do lor. i'm gg off to slp.