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i tink i haf an uncanny ability to organise activities at worst possible timings. so i tried to suggest a Kyojin bbq tis term break, tinkin ppl shld b free to come. at tis stage, i'd like to conclude tt wad sikeng tinks has no wt, cos so far it's not happening. i'm sms-ing lizhen, my vp for tis bbq.. haf thrown e decision making to her, whether to press on or cancel. my take is cancel. i hate things tt hang in mid air with no conclusions.

sikeng is easily discouraged.

sikeng doesn't learn fr past experiences too. for all e organising n enthusiasm he had in getting ppl to meet up or do common activities, he has a track record of failures. he juz doesn't get it. no, not abt y ppl dun come, but y he doesn't give up. juz f****** give up lah for whoever's sake. juz give it up. u r NOT getting anything out of it. u r making urself irritated with ppl, irritated with urself, n neglecting sch work.

Yes. Sch work. u r totally not in e loop of things. why e F r u still bothering abt other stuff? wait till u see all those B-'s n C's at e end of tis sem.. u juz wait. den u wun noe whether to regret or to rejoice. stop spending needless effort n time doing things. not every1 came to stay in hall for reasons like urs. some ppl came to learn independence (from frens as well, of cos); some ppl came to study cos they can't at home etc.

and frens. they r actually nice ppl, but when they dun respond or turn up for ur activities, u get upset with them. tt's not wad frens r for. they r nice ppl. they r juz not interested in mass socialising. give them a break. in so doing, u can give urself a break too. u duno how pissed they feel whenever u msn / sms them to ask them if they r gracing e occasion. y bother asking la.. tt idiot sikeng. i'm obviously not interested. stop all tt shit lah sikeng... all these ain't getting u nowhere. u organising things also not in ur resume wad, it's not like u r in jcrc. pui.

ok bbq is cancelled.. juz a sidetrack.

i juz swore to guanhao tt i'm washing my hands off. big incentive to keep to my words wor.. i say if i dun, i owe him a meal at equinox. not bad rite. promises shld haf more weight. i tink i made too many which i din keep; it's as if they were weightless n cheap.

no more ok. no more.